Sunday, May 12, 2013
An open letter to 1615
Allen, I don't know if you remember a couple nights ago when I grabbed your ass. We were both insanely intoxicated, lying in Amelia's bed. I kept asking the slaveboy for more wine. The room was spinning. I tried to debate the economics of utilitarianism, but all I could do was agree with Ben. I don't know if you remember when I grabbed your jean-covered ass, you didn't look at me or say anything at the time. I'm sure somebody else remembers it, and if it makes you feel any better I got vomit on my iPad the next morning. I guess you're supposed to feel flattered because I think you have a nice ass, but that's just a fact. You'd have a nice ass regardless of whether or not I grabbed it that night. So I think you should feel offended that I didn't just deliver the compliment verbally with a drunken smile before ever encroaching on your ass without your permission. And I just thought I'd let you know, in case you can't remember, that I grabbed your ass a couple nights ago. And I'd do it again.
Thursday, May 9, 2013
love handles
Contact appointment in t-minus 2 days.
I would like to say a few serious things right now - mostly good things, because I need to cheer up my aching, mucky heart. They all sort of relate to me, but not as bad as my last post. Which, I got scolded for writing by one of my best friends.
She had a valid point though, when she wrote her retaliation blog post. Of course there were things I didn't agree with, especially because when I read it I was still in pity-mode, but the overall message was pretty inspiring to read. Along with this post too. Both blog posts basically said that society sucks for making women define their worth by how sexually attractive they are. AND YOU KNOW WHAT. THEY ARE RIGHT. Just because I can't lure in a boy with my face and body, doesn't mean that I am not worth love and affection. OR TO BE WORTH SOMETHING. Whatever boy can see past my freckles, oddly shaped nose, small eyebrows, unevenly sized eyes, tiny tits, love handles, weird looking toes, and breaks past society's messed up perception on women, deserves a prize. And I am that prize.
SeCoNd ThInG, MINNESOTA LEGALIZED THE RIGHT TO MARRY. I am so proud of my state.
Third thing. I officially lost one of my best friends the other day. I was absolutely heartbroken. She DELETED me on FACEBOOK. And at the time all I could do was scream, "YOU'RE A CUNT. I HOPE YOU'RE AS UNHAPPY AS ME, BITCH." But now, I'm not really sad. I look back on our friendship and realize how fake it all was. I always had to watch what I said because she was so easily offended. I felt second to her in everything, which sucked. She's very pretty, and, well, I'm only average. But pretty means nothing when you're fake. Everything I said and did was, apparently to her, to spite her. She ended our friendship the day that she told me I "wouldn't understand" what she was going through. That's when it hit me how fake it all was. Because that's the only thing I do well, is care about my friends. And try to understand where they are coming from. So if she can't see that, then it was never worth it. And now I laugh at myself, I was mad that she deleted me on FACEBOOK. Who the hell cares? We deleted ourselves from our lives long before Monday evening, when I was browsing through my old pictures on the Internet. I still think about her everyday and what it could've been. But maybe this is the push I needed to move on. I don't need that stress. Never did. Never will.
FINAL THING. I HATE WHITE PEOPLE. REVERSE RACISM ISN'T A THING. IF YOU ARE BEING DISCRIMINATED AGAINST, IT IS NOT REVERSE. IT IS JUST RACISM. IF A BLACK PERSON IS BEING RACIST TOWARDS YOU, IT IS NOT REVERSE RACISM, IT IS JUST RACISM. Why are white people so uneducated when it comes to white privilege?! I HONESTLY don't get it. Society is so messed up. If we want to move forward we need to tell kids what is happening in front of us now. It's not their fault that they don't know what white privilege is, it is society's. There is so much bullshit behind everything when it comes to race. Don't believe me? Watch Tim Wise's speech on white privilege. He speaks to colleges and universities about it, the man knows his stuff. I just wish that more people knew about it, then maybe, just maybe, we could end it.
HA, maybe I am just too optimistic.
But maybe not.
Also! Look! A puppy!
I would like to say a few serious things right now - mostly good things, because I need to cheer up my aching, mucky heart. They all sort of relate to me, but not as bad as my last post. Which, I got scolded for writing by one of my best friends.
She had a valid point though, when she wrote her retaliation blog post. Of course there were things I didn't agree with, especially because when I read it I was still in pity-mode, but the overall message was pretty inspiring to read. Along with this post too. Both blog posts basically said that society sucks for making women define their worth by how sexually attractive they are. AND YOU KNOW WHAT. THEY ARE RIGHT. Just because I can't lure in a boy with my face and body, doesn't mean that I am not worth love and affection. OR TO BE WORTH SOMETHING. Whatever boy can see past my freckles, oddly shaped nose, small eyebrows, unevenly sized eyes, tiny tits, love handles, weird looking toes, and breaks past society's messed up perception on women, deserves a prize. And I am that prize.
SeCoNd ThInG, MINNESOTA LEGALIZED THE RIGHT TO MARRY. I am so proud of my state.
Third thing. I officially lost one of my best friends the other day. I was absolutely heartbroken. She DELETED me on FACEBOOK. And at the time all I could do was scream, "YOU'RE A CUNT. I HOPE YOU'RE AS UNHAPPY AS ME, BITCH." But now, I'm not really sad. I look back on our friendship and realize how fake it all was. I always had to watch what I said because she was so easily offended. I felt second to her in everything, which sucked. She's very pretty, and, well, I'm only average. But pretty means nothing when you're fake. Everything I said and did was, apparently to her, to spite her. She ended our friendship the day that she told me I "wouldn't understand" what she was going through. That's when it hit me how fake it all was. Because that's the only thing I do well, is care about my friends. And try to understand where they are coming from. So if she can't see that, then it was never worth it. And now I laugh at myself, I was mad that she deleted me on FACEBOOK. Who the hell cares? We deleted ourselves from our lives long before Monday evening, when I was browsing through my old pictures on the Internet. I still think about her everyday and what it could've been. But maybe this is the push I needed to move on. I don't need that stress. Never did. Never will.
FINAL THING. I HATE WHITE PEOPLE. REVERSE RACISM ISN'T A THING. IF YOU ARE BEING DISCRIMINATED AGAINST, IT IS NOT REVERSE. IT IS JUST RACISM. IF A BLACK PERSON IS BEING RACIST TOWARDS YOU, IT IS NOT REVERSE RACISM, IT IS JUST RACISM. Why are white people so uneducated when it comes to white privilege?! I HONESTLY don't get it. Society is so messed up. If we want to move forward we need to tell kids what is happening in front of us now. It's not their fault that they don't know what white privilege is, it is society's. There is so much bullshit behind everything when it comes to race. Don't believe me? Watch Tim Wise's speech on white privilege. He speaks to colleges and universities about it, the man knows his stuff. I just wish that more people knew about it, then maybe, just maybe, we could end it.
HA, maybe I am just too optimistic.
But maybe not.
Also! Look! A puppy!
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